My Resolutions

This year is probably the first that I have really thought about a resolution. I, like most everybody have several "pairs of shoes" to fill, or in other words, roles to play in my life. I have been a daughter for 24 years, a wife for 5 years, a mother for almost 4 years and have had a calling since I was in Bee Hives...if you count the young women years callings. But to help with my point, I will call them callings. Until now I have been going through a lot of motions in my life, mostly doing what I have to do to get the job done. But a couple of weeks ago, the bishop of our ward came to my (mom's) house and extended the calling of Enrichment Counselor to me. Of course I said..."Yeah, sure, no problem..." What I didn't realize, as a result of getting called to be in the primary practically the day I got married and only going to Relief Society like 20 times in my whole life, was that the Enrichment Counselor is actually in the Relief Society presidency. I thought that I would be working under the 1st or 2nd counselor, not being the 1st or 2nd counselor. I also realized that I am not spiritually "up to snuff." At least I don't think I am. I have never taken the opportunity to really rely on my Heavenly Father to accomplish my tasks and fulfill my callings. I have always been blessed with being around such wonderful and strong people...I just didn't need more help, or so I thought. So I was petrified on sunday as it was my first serving in the presidency. I was glad that it just happened to be fast sunday. I didn't begin my fast on saturday night, I've never been a good "faster." But I realized that I truely and realistically needed my Heavenly Father's help from this day on in order to fulfill this calling. So I started my fast with prayer about an hour before church started, and truely praying in my heart the ENTIRE time until Relief Society was over. Afterward I chased the bishop down to set me apart along with the other counselor, we agreed that we both needed all the help we could get as soon as possible. After two lovely blessings given to the other ladies, it was my turn...again praying in my heart like crazy that the spirit would attend and guide the bishops words. Never in my life have I recieved a blessing so...right, and fitting, and pure...Never in my life have I felt that Heavenly Father was speaking to me, I can't emphasize enough the word never. So, as a testimony to reality of the gift of the Holy Ghost, and Heavenly Fathers love, and Priesthood power, I now really know that they are true and real. I thought I did before, I've always been pretty solid in my testimony. So back to my resolutions, I've decided to resolve to do my best to be worthy of the blessings of being a daughter, wife, mother and enrichment counselor. And to be worthy of the blessings of the Spirit, Heavenly Fathers love, and the priesthood.

I know this is a little long...and maybe even a little sappy...but it was a HUGE spiritual experience. Had to share it with ya!